My Relation with My Nanny !!!

Recently, my nanny was very serious and was admitted to CCU (Cardio Care Unit).At first when i got the news, i was very upset and hoped that soon she would be alright. She remained in the hospital for few days and  then discharged. She wasn't that well and their was no one at home to take good care of her. After two -three days , she fell down in the bathroom and broke her thumb, due to which she lost a significant amount of blood from her body, that too in such condition. She became utterly weak.                                                                                   

 But, today again i heard that she is on oxygen and  too critical. In my solitude , i became nostalgic . My initial days on this earth , i.e. when i was an  infant i have stayed  with my nanny, away from my parents. My dad worked in Army, so he generally stayed away from home and my mom used to stay with my grandparents at our village. My nanny used to take care of me. I even used to call her mummy, and my nanu -papa during my childhood. I dote on them. I was never very close to my mom then. I used to hate when she visited me. My mom berated and punished me for my mischiefs. Since, i was the only child then, so i was given lot of love, care , attention. All my wishes were fulfilled by my maternal grandparents. 

I was an intrepid , brazen and audacious  child but with etiquette. My only fear was my DAD.. I still fear him a lot. But, now i talk to him. Earlier, when he visited me, i didn't even went to take his blessings, i feared him. He was and is the real HITLER of my LIFE :p. He is so byzantine that i have never tried to figure him out. Between my nannny used to save me from his horrendous ire. As my parents were handcuffed  by our circumstances, then my nanny and nanu took my responsibility and kept me(& my bro , who was born little later) with them in Dhanbad for our studies. I  was "Laddali" of my nanny..Along with unconditional love, they taught me basics principles of my life, which became my substratum.My nexus with my nanny was entrenched.We used to spend a lot of time together then.

My nanny hails from a small village near Jehanabad called "Neriya" in Jharkhand, India. She was the only daughter of her parents and so was delicately taken care. She had three brothers and all dote on her. She didn't had much formal education and was married as she reached her puberty. My nanu was very intelligent and hard working, he was in std- IX , then. As she was the eldest "Bahu", she understood her onus and carried them out with all her heart.She was a good daughter-in-law, a submissive wife, who always stood by his husband and supported him. My nanu carried  on his studies and reached a respectable position in his life. His crusade is another big story. She became mother of four children, three boys and a girl( my mom). She has fulfilled every task that was demanded by her. She was very good at knitting pullovers, shawls,etc . She was a creator, a preserver and she was always busy creating something or the other. Even at this stage i.e. at 70 years of age , she is the same :).

Later on due to some ridiculous happenings, i was separated from them and began to live with my parents.But our relation has grown stronger. I remember i and my bro, used to tease her a lot on petty things and she used to get angry.How she used to fight with nanu and i used to watch and laugh .Since few years , she has suffered too much pain in her life, due to some atrocious behaviour of few jolter heads.I have seen her yelling for help , but was helpless. Felt  handicapped. 

Today, seeing her in this condition, a deluge of emotions encircles my senses.She has always stood like a pillar in our grim days. I don't have words to express myself. I am quite Conservative person and unyielding too. I don't like to show my emotions in front of anyone, due to which often my loved ones think that i don't care for them. Off late i have started showing some concern for them.Since, i don't want to regret . I will tell them and make them feel how special they are for me.I love her. I hope she GETS WELL SOON, so that i can spend some Quality time with her.!!!

Goodnyt!:)

Stop for a While !!!

Do you notice my background? People  are running somewhere. Some are about to fall, some pushing others, some want to move ahead others, some want to take rest but can't as others may pull them back, some with some goals, others dawdling aimlessly, some chasing others.... blah blah blah. Each person has its own reason of running or better say not stopping. 

We all in similar way keep chasing our dreams, goals, etc in life. When we were kid we use to run after toys, when we grew a little we use to run away from studies ( Don't know about you , but i was fed up of my parents those days they didn't had any sympathy with me either, just cruelly used to send me school  that to DAILY ;)), few years later you start running after the opposite sex, gadgets or some passion whichever captures your senses, then to get into a good college , job and it continues. Today also we all are running towards something, may our body seems stagnant but our mind is not.We have become inveterate about this habit of ours. 
Did you noticed so many colours were adoring there journey? Trees were passing, hills, some enthralling scenarios may have also passed.Theses colours are the different phases of life or you can say stages of life, .Like, when you got admitted to school for the first time, the first day of your college, the day you met your love-partner, your first job, you got engaged, married, had kids and so on . But we are so intransigent, that we forget enjoying the journey. We keep hassling and pass each stage just like a stair, but our rummage never ends. 

 Did your remember that famous poem, where the author talks about Reaching  "ITHAKA " ?
In that poem the author informs us that yes, we should have a goal where we are destined to reach finally? but it is the journey that enriches us. The trials and tribulations that we suffer during our way to Ithaka in a way our Utopia, that makes us worth it. It ensconces through our journey.The journey is not only about reaching a certain point , its about experiencing the bliss in our life. Our jaunt on this earth should be  idyllic and entrenched. It should not be an evanescent experience. Just get drenched in the wave of Present moment and let yourself blossom every moment. Welcome every  moment with smile and live it .Forget about the past, drop it. Drop the memories that irks you. Become a fountain of love and peace.
 So, lets STOP for a while and see Where are we headed  ? Is that worth a chase?,  Do we really need it?. If not its time to veer your direction.  Let go! what has passed and prepare and plan for the future but live 100% in the present with a serene smile :)

Goodbye!!!

Learning in small bits!!!

Some incidents in our life teach us a lot. We all sometimes draw conclusions about someone, just by  meeting them once. If that person behaves little weird or glacial towards us, on the first meet we brand them like that only. As we believe the famous adage " First Impression is the Last Impression". 

But , as we gradually know him, our thoughts get moderated. A little makeover happens. Time passes and our thought changes.Suddenly the person you once hated or ignored, you start liking, Isn't it? it happens with all of us. Do you know why? Its not that the person has changed in few days.He still possess the same body, mind , intellect etc. Its just that we have started focusing on the POSITIVE aspect of his/her  personality.

Have you ever noticed how ephemeral our opinion about any person is ?

Yes! our so called fickle decisions about others. But our opinion keeps on changing, still most of us remain attached to our old dogmas about that particular person.Why do we care so much about our opinions, which are going to change? As the axiom  says " Change is Constant ". 

 And change happens,say Why do some relations carry on and some breaks up soon? Some remain friends forever and some for few months? Any relationship exists only until we focus on the positive aspect of the relation, as we start noticing the negative qualities of the person our relationship with that person starts fading. Whosoever he/she is and whatever his/her relation with you is.

For example: Lets consider you met a guy and you both became good friends. You grew quite close. Your friend helped you in studies, behaved well, played with you,gave you money  if u needed etc. the heads side of the coin. Few months later you stay away from him, and why? Since you start seeing backside of the coin now Tails side- u find him bossy and  arrogant, u notice that he lends you money but the next day he wants it back, he behaved well but mostly he is rude etc. Its not that he has undergone a transformation or somebody has brainwashed him,its just that only your FOCUS has drifted.

 In the same way as you travel through your life's Journey, you will always have to face such situations and it depends on your dexterity to handle the situation. To make any relation consummate focus on the positive.Its just because of gaffe that we commit we sometime lose our real friends,  partners etc I know we all are fledglings, but it is  this gestation period that develops our gamut of experiences. Lets sip these bits of knowledge that are pervading all around us. Lets be a Gopal to each other i.e. a friend in knowledge and uplift each of us and the society from these petty emotions to bigger goals in LIFE..!!!